Lost in Transition

"Disorder increases with time, because we measure time in the direction in which disorder increases."
    ~~ Stephen William Hawking~~

   I am here, you say.
   But am I, really?

I thought then, “ 'there', is where I want to be....”

Didn't think, going away would entail letting go;

I let go.

I let go of what I had,

Of what I knew;

That which allowed me the capacity for 'dreams',

Thinking, 'there'- 'here'- I would find what I seek.

Now I see, in leaving I have left behind

All, for what I'll be yearning.

But 'here' I am, come from 'there'!

And the fading trails of a lingering wish;

That 'here' wasn't a lifetime removed from 'there'